Day 2

I cannot tell you how badly I want an Oreo. 

It is day two of our 21-day fast. As I posted yesterday, I had an extra day off today. I had hoped to be very productive, but I can't say that I have been. I ended up going to the dentist in the middle of the day and not getting much of anything accomplished (aside from snuggling the baby a little). 

This morning I prayed specifically for the adult leaders of our youth group. We get a lot of credit for being the "pastors", but we could not run our ministry without the adult team. They are our Sunday school teacher, our sound and media technician, our praise and worship team. They are our cheerleaders, our helpers, our friends. We are glad to work with such great people who give their time and effort each and every week. 

Tonight I'm praying for a financial miracle. One of my big, main goals for the year is to reduce debt. We will be able to pay off an auto loan this fall, and I am so excited! Today, however, I got some news that is going to result in an extra $300 monthly expense. If this were the fall and we had that loan paid off, it wouldn't be a big deal, but it's not fall and it is kind of a big deal. I don't know how God will do it, but there's nothing I can do. I know my salary won't be changing, and I'm not willing to get a second job and miss out on time with my kids, so He's going to have to do something. Money is a struggle for me lately...I don't understand sometimes. I want God to deliver me from the "debt pit", but I wonder if He honors that kind of request when I'M THE ONE WHO PUT MYSELF IN DEBT! I feel frustrated because, if I wasn't in debt, this new $300 monthly expense wouldn't be a problem. Besides this new expense, at the dentist I learned that I need two crowns. I don't know if you've ever had a crown, but those babies aren't cheap. I'm just struggling tonight. I know God's the biggest, and I'm trying to lean on Him. I need Him to help me believe and help me to trust Him. He can do anything. 

"With man this may seem impossible, but with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE." Matthew 19:26

-R